today i am disjointed & all over the place. up & down, i spin round & round different moods & feelings, one minute about to cry, the next sat laughing. i don't like it, but i saw the doctor this morning & i'm back on my medication, which is a plus, hopefully my mood will settle again soon ( Read more... )

time seems to be tripping me up again. i can't keep up with this world. last night i had nightmares that time was running away from me & i couldn't run fast enough to keep up & i watched as the world dripped from my view. these things don't scare me & perhaps they should ( Read more... )

I despise irrational thoughts & this Christmas is set to be bathed in as much misery as each year before. Working Christmas eve & boxing day means no parents to be seen, no brother to be argued with & I wouldn't argue with him this year, if it meant I could spend Christmas day at home with my family, being woken up because I wanted to sleep in & ( Read more... )

Lazy sunday days & the sun shines languidly through the window. its pretty & fills me with hope ( Read more... )

I'm frustrated with myself beyond all reason ( Read more... )

I can't get them out my head ( Read more... )